New Year Resolutions

The new year is coming. And I have a lot of unfinished business at hand. But hey, so long that I am still living, there is no deadline. I have set a goal not just to meet it. It is to direct me towards something. To aid me grow and leave stagnant achievement behind. So with all the power vested in me to decide on my life, I would like to carry forward some of the latent life changing resolution to marry with the new ones for my further action.

I know what I want. I will make it happen. For starters, I will enroll for my MBA programme. I will start learning again. Should everything fall into its places, I will be on my way to pursuit my PhD in 2 ½ years time max.

I want to learn one more language. I have a few in mind to choose from. But, I also need to consider the practical part of it. Learning a new language is as imperative as using it. So I need to scrape France or Germany or maybe Japanese. Or else I might waste much or my time and money investing in a bad pool catching no fish but garbage.

I want to put off some weight. Its for my health and my personal needs. Its also for my self esteem. It will not make me any good in my acumen, but still it is a battle that I waged and I am on to win this one. As I said, it is personal.

I want to grow in my career. I am thinking to move if the situation permitted. In light of global economic fever, I must take my time in making the decision. I know that I need to count on my blessing at my present employment, but the decision is nothing short of great dilemma as I need to choose between what I want and what is best for me.

I want to be active again. My current ACL injuries hindered me pleasure of playing high intensity sports the way I was built for. I hope that I will find strengths to proceed with the procedures as laid out by my Orthopedics Specialist. It will be gruesome to me but I think I can tolerate the beating. I just don’t know how far and how stressful it will be. Its for me to find out. Maybe, I can use some rest from my routine if I choose to go on.

I want to perform an Umrah this year. But this one will depend on my new salary structure. If everything go on as planned, it will be a good time for me to have a go on this. Lets just wait and decide. But of course, this one is extrinsic in nature as it depends on other variables e.g my knee, my new salary, my time etc etc.

Enough of lamenting last failure and roll out new resolution. Its time to prove that I can make this happen. InsyaAllah. I can do this. I knew it.

New Book

I bought a book yesterday. Not relatively a new book. I came across this book many times before but pay no attention to it until very much later. The title is “Tuesday With Morrie” by author Mitch Albom. He is a prominent sports commentator turned masterful book writer and has wrote handful of great books. As soon as reading the first page of it, I fell for the book. It was beautifully crafted, very light yet so profound, bears very remarkable lessons for us to learn. Its about a dying old man (a wise person to the core of course), a young man and life greatest lesson. And to make things even better, it is non-fiction. It’s a real life scenario with real characters embodied the story. I want to share some of the aphorism that had shook me to my reality life. Quoted by the late Morrie Schwartz.

“Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.”

“Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too- even when you are in the dark. Even when you are falling.”

“So many people walk around with a meaning-less life. They seem half asleep. Even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they are chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

This book is good. Please get a copy. It will enrich your life.

P/S: I can see that this lesson also impart of teaching in Islam. We could have use this long-long time ago.

Kerja...Kerja...Kerja

Alahai… malas betul la nak menulis. Kalau nak ikutkan masa, aku mmg tak der masa nak buat benda lain dalam hidup aku ni. Kalau tak keje, aku tido.Nasib baiklah hujung minggu ada, boleh jugak la aku plan buat benda lain. Jenjalan ker, tgk movie ker, main tennis ker..Jangan ingat aku ni kuat tido plak. Maksud aku hidup aku ni tak der benda lain, kerja…kerja… kerja…tidor kejap mlm pastu bangun pagi pegi kerja… kerja… kerja…mcm tu la dari lima tahun lepas hingga sekarang. Patut la ada org yg dah tak nak keje makan gaji kan? Aku baru faham kenapa…Bagi mereka, ia macam satu pembaziran masa yg melampau2. Betul jugak kalau kita fikirkan balik. Kita guna banyak masa kita utk buat kerja yg memanfaatkan pihak lain. Kita buat kerja dengan menggunakan segala masa dan tenaga yg kita ada…macam la kita ada masa yg byk sangat utk dibazirkan mcm tu jer…Macam la kita tau kita semua boleh hidup sampai umur 90++ tahun..Kita mcm jadi hamba gak la..hamba kepada duit. Sbb kita keje utk duit, kita jual masa kita utk duit.Kita tak berdaya, juz jadi hamba yg bergantung harap kpd org lain.Tapi tu la, kalau tak keje pun tak elok jugak. Otak jadi lembab. Jiwa rasa kosong. Masa terbuang. Tak produktif. Kita akan jadi macam biawak pasir…lepak jer tak bergerak2.Jadi aku bukan kata kerja tu tak elok. Actually keje tu elok utk kita. Cuma, kalau kita keje utk diri sendiri, aku rasa ia lebih baik dari keje utk org. Sbb, kalau kita keje utk diri sendiri,kita macam tak keje. Sbb ia sebahagian dari hidup kita. Kita tak boleh nak bersara dari hidup kita kan???Lain la kalau kita tanya soalan ni kat org yg nak bunuh diri…dia mesti jawab boleh la….

So, apa penyelesaiannya? Aku rasa aku kena keje jugak.Dah terpaksa. Lain la kalau kita anak org kaya raya kan?Celik2 mata jer dah ada business running. Sbb kita org biasa jer, so kita sebenarnya tak leh nak komplen byk sgt. Apa yg kita boleh buat, kita kena berusaha utk maju. Mungkin dgn cara itu, kita tak perlu bekerja dgn org buat selama2nya. Mungkin satu hari kita dapat bergerak naik jadi majikan plak…mungkin… bila tu bergantung la kpd cara dan sikap kita.

Huhuhu…kerja….kerja…kerja